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i didn't mean to hurt you
May. 19th, 2012 06:16 pmSo I found out that my mother has me listed on Facebook as a write-in for a family member. The only reason I can imagine that she did this is because she wants to list me as her daughter, rather than her son. She used my legal name.
I didn't expect seeing that to hurt as much as it did. But it's yet another time for her to rub it into my face that it's been 5 years now and she still can't respect me for who I am.
I very rarely pass as female anymore. I have a beard. People accept me as male. But my mother can't. Fuck, her friends are more accepting of who I am than she is. One of her friends has always been comfortable calling me what I'm comfortable being called. But my mother just can't let go.
It's been harder for me to cry since I started testosterone. But right now, I'm on the verge of tears over something so simple. So stupid.
I didn't expect seeing that to hurt as much as it did. But it's yet another time for her to rub it into my face that it's been 5 years now and she still can't respect me for who I am.
I very rarely pass as female anymore. I have a beard. People accept me as male. But my mother can't. Fuck, her friends are more accepting of who I am than she is. One of her friends has always been comfortable calling me what I'm comfortable being called. But my mother just can't let go.
It's been harder for me to cry since I started testosterone. But right now, I'm on the verge of tears over something so simple. So stupid.
